Eighteen's Bed

Chapter 12.4

"My dad’s been asking why you haven’t been coming over lately. The old man never even talks to me, but you—somehow, even after pulling all that dumbass shit, you’re still his favorite. Meanwhile, the moment I saw you, all my feelings for you just died."

Go Yohan scoffed, voice dripping with mockery.

"So tell me, what’s your secret? Let the neglected son learn a thing or two."

"......Yeah."

"Fuck, yeah? That’s all you’ve got to say?"

"......"

"Anyway, I’m only trying to make up with you because of my dad. Got it? So don’t get the wrong idea. If I tell him we’re not talking anymore, I’ll just get called a dumbass again. ‘What kind of idiot gets into a fight with the top student?’—you get the idea."

He punctuated his words by smacking my arm. Hard.

The force of it made me stumble slightly, but Go Yohan didn’t even bother steadying me.

That, more than anything, proved just how sincere his words were.

"So, to be clear—I don’t actually want to make up with you. I’m just forcing myself to do it."

"Yeah."

"Don’t get the wrong fucking idea."

"I get it. I get it already, so quit talking."

Irritation flared inside me. Did he really have to spell it out like that?

Go Yohan was a real piece of shit.

Yeah. I just had to hold it in a little longer.

I clenched my fists under my blazer and swallowed hard.

Just one more time.

I could be an idiot one last time for the sake of a peaceful high school life.

I exhaled and forced myself to keep talking, voicing all the thoughts I had bottled up.

"......Yeah, I was wrong. I was so fucking wrong. I got caught up in the whole idea of helping you and did something so shitty I wanna vomit just thinking about it. I was sloppy. I was pathetic. And yeah—you’re right. It was fucking embarrassing. I don’t even know what I was thinking. Probably nothing, because I was a fucking idiot. So I’m sorry."

Every word that left my mouth was the absolute truth.

Really.

And honestly?

Go Yohan had fucked me up.

I just wanted this entire suffocating, miserable situation to end.

"But I can’t make up with you. Let’s just act like we don’t know each other and go our separate ways."

What, he expected me to hang around him again after all this?

That would be hell.

I wasn’t a fool.

I had already crossed the burning lake of fire once with Han Junwoo.

I knew better now.

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