life partner

Chapter 3 Self-harm

When Xu Cheng was four years old, his younger brother was born.

Originally, Li Huiyao didn't want to have any more children, but because of the IQ defect of the first child, the whole Xu family fell into a kind of haze. Xu Yingren's mother began to blame Li Huiyao, and also put pressure on them in disguise, telling them to get married as soon as possible. In giving birth to a child.

But Li Huiyao is very disgusted with this matter. She is afraid that when the child is born, Xu Cheng's situation will become awkward. He is not smart, and everyone in the family does not like Xu Cheng. When the youngest son is born, what will Xu Cheng do? manage?

It's just that Li Huiyao didn't have the final say on this matter. By the end of the year, she was still pregnant.

Everyone in the family was very happy, even Xu Yingren smiled a little bit, but Li Huiyao was the only one who couldn't be happy. At that time, Xu Yingren's younger sister, Xu Lanlan, came to the house to take care of Xu Cheng for her. Li Huiyao could see that , in this family, probably Xu Lanlan really loves Xu Cheng, and doesn't dislike Xu Cheng's stupidity.

When Li Huiyao was pregnant with Xu Jing, her health was always bad, and her morning sickness was more frequent than the first child. In just one month, she lost a lot of weight. The old people in the family began to worry. Xu Cheng bumped into the child in Li Huiyao's womb, so he told Xu Yingren that he should take Xu Cheng to his hometown to raise him, and bring back the child in Li Huiyao's womb when he was born.

The elderly are always superstitious, although Xu Yingren knew it in his heart, but he also understood that Li Huiyao was hurt because he saw Xu Cheng who was stupid and dumb, so he hesitated about this proposal, and then he told his wife, of course Li Huiyao is not Agreed, she could tell that her mother-in-law didn't like Xu Cheng, and she was afraid that Xu Cheng would be treated harshly there.

But at this time, Xu Lanlan stepped forward. She was only just graduated at the time. She found a job and lived alone. She and Xu Cheng had a good relationship because she had been looking for Xu Cheng to play with. The child would recognize her. At that time, she held Xu Cheng's hand, pursed her lips and said with a straight face that she was here to take care of Xu Cheng.

Xu Yingren and Li Huiyao were both surprised by her solemn appearance, but then Li Huiyao shook her head. She was not hurt because of seeing Xu Cheng, but because of the child in her stomach. She was terrified. Xu Cheng will be treated harshly when the child is born, and she will definitely not be able to fully protect him in the days to come.

But Xu Lanlan's thoughts towards Xu Cheng are really good, and with this, she is relieved.

But at this time, Xu Cheng's hand broke free from Xu Lanlan's grasp. He was still very young and had just learned to walk. At this moment, his gait was a little wobbly and he came to Li Huiyao. He raised his head, looked at Li Huiyao with beautiful eyes, and blinked again. Blinking, he lowered his head and stared stiffly at Li Huiyao's unobvious abdomen.

Li Huiyao smiled lightly, her eyebrows and eyes curved into crescent moons, and she took Xu Cheng's hand, "Look here, your brother is inside!" Her tone was very gentle, like a breeze blowing across her face. Come, Xu Cheng felt very comfortable, and unconsciously his originally stiff body slowly eased down.

Xu Yingren watched from the side, he knew that Xu Cheng was not his wife's heart knot at all, his wife's fatigue actually came from her parents, the first child's mental retardation, for her, it was too much of a blow She is big, and facing the pressure of her family makes her even more exhausted.

Thinking of this, Xu Yingren walked over and gently supported Li Huiyao's shoulder, silently comforting her.

In this way, Xu Cheng didn't have to leave, but Xu Lanlan came to his brother's house more frequently on weekdays.

During Li Huiyao's pregnancy, her body was often weak and tired. Xu Cheng was a quiet child. The cute appearance of the head makes people laugh, Xu Lanlan often touches Xu Cheng's little head with a look of doting.

Xu Jing has been a noisy master since he was a child. This can be seen from the fact that he was still in Li Huiyao's stomach, causing her to toss and turn every night and couldn't sleep. Xu Jing only stayed in Li Huiyao's stomach for eight months. He was born as a premature baby, and his body was extremely weak when he was born. He stayed in the incubator for another two months before it was considered good. Because of this incident, Xu Cheng's grandmother had a little more prejudice against him. He was unlucky, it was he who broke Li Huiyao's fetal gas.

Poor little Xu Cheng has been ordered not to see his younger brother. In fact, Xu Cheng still didn't talk much at that time, but probably because of some kind of blood relationship, after Xu Jing was born, he actually yelled "brother!" ", he rarely showed anxiety, he kept calling "brother" and wanted to see Xu Jing, but was picked up by grandma and he was not allowed to see.

Xu Cheng couldn't figure out why the old man in front of him didn't like him. He looked at Grandma Xu in a daze, and the emotion on his face quickly changed.

"You stay here, your mother just gave birth to a younger brother, don't bother them, you know?"

Of course, Xu Cheng didn't understand Grandma Xu's words. It's just that he was scolded a little louder, and immediately stopped moving. He sat on the chair without looking up, just staring at the hospital floor, slowly Slowly fell silent.

In fact, he is just autistic, not mentally handicapped. He can even feel the malice from the outside world more clearly than ordinary people. He knows that people around him don't like him.

Xu Cheng leaned his head against the wall, closed his eyes, and lowered the corners of his mouth, showing a cry-like expression.

After Li Huiyao got better and Xu Jing came out of the incubator, Xu Cheng was allowed to go to her mother to see her younger brother. At that time, Xu Jing was very young. In Xu Cheng's eyes, he was just like the kitten next door. Like, fragile and soft.

Xu Cheng watched from a distance, even breathing carefully.

At this time, he didn't dare to speak anymore.

"Chengcheng came over to see my brother."

His mother called him to come over affectionately, Xu Cheng was stunned, and rubbed his feet forward, but as soon as he took a step, grandma came from behind and blocked Xu Cheng's body, and pinched him in the dark. Cheng's eyes widened, and he let out an "ah", and the baby cried out immediately when he heard the sound, which made Xu Cheng afraid.

He timidly looked at his mother who was in a hurry to comfort his younger brother, his father who was frowning, and his grandmother who stood in front of him and pinched him. He didn't know what to do. Xu Cheng's body trembled a few times, and he finally relaxed.

"I didn't mean to." He whispered.

The aunt sighed, and wanted to say something, but she still hesitated.

Xu Cheng raised his head, looked at his aunt, and waited for her to speak, but when her neck became sore, Xu Lanlan still didn't say a word.

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Children seem to grow very fast. In less than two months, Xu Jing has grown from a little skinny cat to a piglet, a chubby ball. Xu Cheng likes this chubby little brother very much. The relationship was insignificant. Later, when his mother recovered, he clung to his younger brother every day, staring at him without blinking, hugging his little toy, and sitting on a small bench for a day.

After Xu Jing was born, he grew up like a rocket. This child was smart since he was a child, he could talk and walk earlier than other children, and he could recite Tang poems when he was three years old. Xu Cheng is incomparable, but even so Li Huiyao prefers Xu Cheng a little more.

When Xu Jing was three years old, he still liked to follow Xu Cheng, calling his brother out of his mouth, but when he got a little older, he stopped shouting proudly.

Xu's family lives in a small bungalow with a good living environment. Each household has its own backyard where they can grow flowers and vegetables, and they can't see each other with their neighbors. The eldest son of the Xu family has an IQ problem. A few neighbors who are closer also know about it.

Adults still look at their faces when they meet, but children don't. Xu Jing was playing on the swing in his backyard that day, and a few children who were slightly older than him came over and threw a small stone at Xu Jing. Xu Jing was bounced and almost fell off the swing.

"What are you doing?"

He patted the place where he was bounced, frowning, a little angry.

Those children gathered outside the wooden fence and blinked at Xu Jing, "Is your brother at home?"

"It's inside, what's wrong?"

"Hehe." The child at the front smiled with a mocking expression on his face. He glanced at the half-closed door, then at the dazed Xu Jing, and suddenly laughed at him loudly: "Xu Jing, your brother is just a fool. You have an idiot brother."

At this time, the door was suddenly opened, and Xu Cheng, who didn't know it, came out, slightly bent his mouth, and called "brother" to Xu Jing.

But as soon as Xu Cheng came out, a few small stones were thrown on his body. He was terrified, and stood in place, not daring to move.

Xu Jing heard a lot of mocking voices again. With a tiger face, he grabbed a big rock on the ground and threw it at the group of children, then ran to Xu Cheng's side, and dragged the frozen Xu Cheng into the room. inside the house.

He probably understood a little bit at that time, looking at Xu Cheng's dull and cowardly appearance, he also understood a little bit that his brother is different from other people's brothers, and even grandma told him secretly that his brother Xu Cheng is a fool, so don't let him be fooled.

At first Xu Jing was very angry when he heard grandma's words, and he had a fight with grandma, but after seeing his brother's appearance, he felt awkward in his heart, and gradually he no longer wanted to call Xu Cheng "brother" so much. up.

Xu Jing was raised to have a bad temper, so she became a little willful, and Li Huiyao noticed that she stopped calling "brother", so she scolded him, but Xu Jing didn't listen.

Xu Jing's face was flushed red, he pointed at Xu Cheng's nose, and shouted loudly: "He is a fool, I don't want to recognize a fool as my brother!"

"Snapped!"

"You bastard..." Li Huiyao slapped Xu Jing, half of the child's face turned red, and Xu Jing's eye sockets immediately became wet. With tears in his eyes, he looked at his mother in disbelief. Xu Cheng was also frightened As soon as he jumped, his body shook violently a few times, and he dared not speak, so he let out the sound of "enen" in his throat, tangled and weak, and his expression was filled with self-blaming cowardice.

Li Huiyao regretted it after hitting her, and wanted to touch Xu Jing, but the child threw off Li Huiyao's hand, turned around and ran away.

That night, Xu Jing slept with his grandma. Xu's grandma loved her grandson the most. Seeing her little grandson blushing, she immediately ran to Li Huiyao and scolded her. It was the unlucky Xu Cheng.

"What's the matter if you don't call him brother? Do you think Xu Cheng looks like a brother? Xu Jing has grown up now and has a strong self-esteem. He is afraid that others will say that there is something wrong!"

Li Huiyao frowned, she covered Xu Cheng's ears and told him to go back to the room.

"Mom, you are wrong to say that. What self-esteem is not self-esteem? Xu Jing is still so young. If you spoil him so much, this child will turn bad sooner or later." Added in a low voice, "It's bad enough now, you can even deny your own brother."

As soon as she finished speaking, she heard a scream coming from the room. Li Huiyao was startled, and hurriedly opened the door, but she saw the blood on Xu Cheng's hand and tears on her face, she stared blankly at him, There was an "ahhh" sound in my throat.

Li Huiyao stayed there for a few seconds, then immediately hugged Xu Cheng. Li Huiyao saw the small knife lying on the ground beside her, which she used to sharpen Xu Cheng's pencils. It was covered with blood, and her hands were trembling. , hastily covered the wound on Xu Cheng's wrist with a cloth, and ran out the door with the child in his arms.

At this time, Grandma Xu was probably too frightened, she didn't move, her lips were still trembling, Li Huiyao missed her, and cursed fiercely, "Old xx, it's all because of you." Xu Grandma was taken aback for a moment, her brow furrowed, but she collapsed immediately, followed Li Huiyao, and followed her to the hospital.