perfect lover

Chapter 43

Zheng Hao sat in the car, and he passed by before he could see the scenery on both sides of the road clearly. Zheng Hao liked this feeling very much, because some things don't need to be seen too clearly.

"Do you want to listen to music?"

"Okay, I want to listen to your song."

"no problem."

Not long after, Dai Jinyan's unique voice came from the stereo.

I asked myself if it was worth it

that sad and painful love

I asked myself if I should keep

the endless vortex of despair

when you leave

i can't see it

that happy you and me

when you turn around

i can't see it

that happy sky

why go

Just because the love I gave you is too heavy

why escape

Just because I don't follow rules and regulations

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Zheng Hao focused on the scenery beside the road and asked: "This song is really nice, why haven't I heard it before, did you write it yourself?"

"This song was written for fun in private. The song was written by the company's composer, and I just wrote the lyrics."

Zheng Hao turned his head, "The words you wrote? Should they be addressed to someone?"

"It's about my first love." Dai Jinyan looked forward, his face didn't fluctuate at all, as if he wasn't talking about himself.

Zheng Hao sighed and turned back to look out the window, "First love is always bitter, can you talk about it?"

"If you want to hear it."

At this time the car stopped suddenly, Zheng Hao turned his head and looked ahead, there was a black sea behind the sparse bushes, someone lit a bonfire by the sea, this small bonfire in the dark night seemed to heal people's tired hearts, "We Is this the beach?"

Dai Jinyan turned off the engine and opened the car window. The night wind blew in, bringing the smell of the sea, a bit fishy and salty, which made Zheng Hao feel like the bitterness of love in the song just now.

Dai Jinyan said: "Let's go to the beach for a while when there are fewer people."

"Well, by the way, what was the name of the song just now?"

Dai Jinyan rested his head on the back of the chair and closed his eyes, "There is no name."

"no name?"

"Of course it won't have a name if it's not published. Don't you want to hear about my first love?"

"Yeah." Zheng Hao felt that Dai Jinyan seemed to be in a bad mood today, so he didn't dare to say anything more.

"He's my high school classmate."

Zheng Hao muttered in his heart, why is he a high school classmate again?

"At that time, I didn't understand anything, I only knew that I liked to be with him, and later I realized that my feelings for him were not ordinary friendship, so I confessed to him..." Dai Jinyan stopped suddenly when he said this, He opened his eyes and took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket.

"You confessed, then what happened?"

Dai Jinyan lit a cigarette and took a deep breath and said, "He was scared away."

"Ah~" Zheng Hao sighed in disappointment.

Dai Jinyan gave Zheng a funny smile, "Isn't this ending normal?"

"You must have been very sad at that time." Zheng Hao remembered that he was really in pain at that time.

"Sad? It's okay, after all, he rejected me before I got too deep, and I have to thank him."

"Thank him for what?"

"Thank him for rejecting me, don't accept me if you don't love me."

"Well, that makes sense."

The two chatted for a long time, Dai Jinyan saw that there was no one on the beach, so he asked Zheng Hao to accompany him for a walk.

Zheng Hao looked at the sea that was only marginal, and suddenly felt empty. The sea at night is really ugly. Looking over, it was pitch black and there was nothing.

"Zheng Hao, why do you think they always force me?"

"they are……"

"Parents, friends, colleagues, and even fans who keep saying they love me." Dai Jinyan frowned, his handsome face became melancholy, which made Zheng Hao think he looked better.

"Did they force you because you came out?"

"Well, although I kept saying that I don't care, it doesn't matter, but those voices came to my ears, how could I not feel it?"

Zheng Hao walked over and wanted to pat him on the shoulder to comfort him, but was suddenly hugged by Dai Jinyan. Dai Jinyan hugged him very hard, and Zheng Hao even felt a bit like being entangled by a very thick rope.

"My love is just a little different from theirs, why do they think I'm wrong?"

Zheng Hao gently held Dai Jinyan's waist, "You are not wrong, but you have to understand them, they don't understand homosexuality and we don't understand heterosexuality is the same."

Dai Jinyan let go of Zheng Hao's body, the pain on his face lightened, and at the same time, he was a little surprised, "You are the first person to comfort me like this, and others comfort me by scolding those who don't understand me. , and you let me understand them?"

Zheng Hao smiled and said: "Although the methods are different, our original intention is the same, which is to cheer you up."

Dai Jinyan narrowed his eyes, "Now I kind of understand why Xiang Wei said you are stupid."

"Huh?" Just when Zheng Haoting was confused, his hand was suddenly grabbed by Dai Jinyan.

Dai Jinyan held Zheng Hao's hand and said suddenly: "Zheng Hao, be my boyfriend."

"I..." After Zheng Hao experienced several relationships, this was the first time he hesitated. He asked himself if he really wanted to start with Dai Jinyan?

Seeing that he didn't answer, Dai Jinyan seized the opportunity and said, "If you don't tell me, I'll take it as if you agreed."

"what?"

Dai Jinyan nodded Zheng Hao's nose, "You're so cute when you're bewildered, go to my place tonight."

"I...wait..."

Dai Jinyan didn't give Zheng Hao a chance to refuse at all, he pulled Zheng Hao and walked towards the car.

"Are you together?"

Zheng Hao suddenly received a text message from Xiang Wei when he was at work, and he was surprised. He saw the news that Xiang Wei was busy filming in the morning. Why do you have time to send him a message now?

"Aren't you filming? So free?"

"Don't talk nonsense with me, answer my questions!"

There were three angry expressions behind Xiang Wei's reply. Zheng Hao was a little afraid of him at first, but when he saw these expressions, he couldn't be serious.

"Together."

"Oh, I see."

Zheng Hao suddenly felt a little awkward. In the past, every time he interacted with others, Xiang Wei was either surprised or excited, but this time he didn't react at all.

Zheng Hao curled his lips and was about to put his phone away when he heard a text message, it was still Xiang Wei.

"You will regret this."

Zheng Hao frowned slightly looking at these words, why did he feel like he was cursed.

"What..." Zheng Hao put away his mobile phone, when the guest next to him asked to turn on the TV, Zheng Hao responded and turned on the TV, at this time the news about Dai Jinyan was playing on the TV.

As soon as Zheng Hao heard Dai Jinyan's name, his eyes lit up. He stared at Dai Jinyan's face on TV, and he felt that he was still not as good-looking as himself.

Zheng Hao admired Dai Jinyan's appearance for a while and suddenly felt something was wrong. The news was that Dai Jinyan was photographed dating her boyfriend after coming out of the closet, but the so-called "boyfriend" of Dai Jinyan in the video recorded by the paparazzi was not himself at all.

"Who is he...forget it."

Zheng Hao was a little confused at the beginning, but it was fleeting. After all, it is normal for a celebrity to have an affair. Maybe that person is just a friend of Dai Jinyan, who just happened to be photographed by a reporter.

Xiang Wei, who had just finished filming and was resting, hung up the phone and searched the Internet for a bunch of news about Dai Jinyan's new relationship. He could imagine Zheng Hao's face when he saw the news, it must be very exciting.

Song Yun, who was on the side, couldn't help beating his heart when he saw Xiang Wei making a weird laugh on his phone. He wondered if Xiang Wei had too much work and a little stress recently, otherwise how could he be so abnormal.I was anxious just now, but now I am happy again, and I don’t know what it will be like for a while.

"Xiang Wei, are you okay?"

"Huh? It's okay." Xiang Wei raised his head and immediately looked down at the phone.

"What are you looking at? So happy."

"Ahem... just watching the news." Xiang Wei said impatiently.

It was the first time Song Yun saw that Xiang Wei was able to watch the news so successfully, "It seems that you are in a good mood."

Song Yun's tone was full of teasing, Xiang Wei raised his head and squinted at him, then lowered his head again.

"I'm in a really good mood."

Zheng Hao has been talking on the phone with Dai Jinyan after work, and the two have been chatting. During this period, Zheng Hao wanted to ask him about the news several times, but it was difficult to ask him. Dai Jinyan didn’t take the initiative to explain. He was afraid that people would think he was narrow-minded, so Zheng Hao didn't ask, maybe it was really like what he thought, it's normal for celebrities to have scandals.

Zheng Hao didn't hang up the phone until he got home. When he was opening the door, someone came up the stairs. Zheng Hao looked back, but he didn't expect it to be Wu Kuo.

"Wu Kuo? Why are you here?"

Wu Kuo's hair was a bit long, and he didn't take good care of it. There was a layer of stubble growing on his chin, and he had heavy dark circles on his face. Seeing Wu Kuo like this, Zheng Hao couldn't help but feel worried.

"Zheng Hao, long time no see. I asked Ma Jingjing for your address. If I take the liberty of coming to you, I won't disturb you."

"No, no, do you want to come in and sit down?"

"No, it's too late now, I just came to see you and see if you are doing well."

"I'm fine...but you...you look tired."

Wu Kuo took out a handkerchief and wiped his eyes to avoid Zheng Hao's gaze, "I've been too busy at work recently."

"Oh, work is important, but your body is more important. You should rest more." Zheng Hao felt very sad seeing Wu Kuo like this.

"I'm fine. I'll be fine after a few days of rest. I miss you a lot recently..." Wu Kuo put away his handkerchief and faced Zheng Hao again. This time he looked at Zheng Hao's face and suddenly became focused and approached him.

"Zheng Hao, can you take off your glasses and let me see?"

"Oh, okay." Zheng Hao took off his glasses and suddenly felt a chill on his face. It turned out that Wu Kuo's hand was stroking his face. Zheng Hao was shocked. When did Wu Kuo get so close to him?

Wu Kuo touched Zheng Hao's face, then came to the brow bone, and finally stopped on his flat bridge of nose, "Your nose?"

"Oh, the hyaluronic acid injection last time passed the time, and I didn't go either..."

Before Zheng Hao finished speaking, he felt blurred vision and a gust of wind in his ears, and then a sudden unbearable pain came from his temple, and then Zheng Hao sat on the ground unsteadily, his buttocks hurting from falling.

Before the pain on Zheng Hao's body was relieved, the clothes on his chest were grabbed again, so he was pulled up again.

"Why don't you continue to get injections! Look at your current appearance, do you know how ugly you are!" Wu Kuo yelled at Zheng Hao almost crazily.

Zheng Hao grabbed Wu Kuo's hand. He felt that such a Wu Kuo was too strange, and even made him feel scared, "Wu Kuo... let me go."

"I asked you to have an operation and you didn't do it! Now you don't even have an injection, why are you ruining yourself like this! You could have been perfect!" Wu Kuo's face was very close to Zheng Hao, and they were almost close to each other .

Zheng Hao had never seen such a fierce and violent face on his face, and he couldn't even believe that Wu Kuo hit him just now.

"Wu Kuo...I..." Zheng Hao tried hard to break Wu Kuo's hand, but his hand was as hard as a rock, and he couldn't break it no matter how hard he tried.

"What do you want to say? What do you want to explain? Didn't you say that you can do anything for me? Why can't you do it now? Why!"

Wu Kuo's roar was particularly abrupt and miserable in the dark corridor, but Zheng Hao only felt fear.

"Wu Kuo, calm down...we...have broken up."

"What did you say?" Wu Kuo was stunned suddenly, he let go of Zheng Hao and slowly backed away, still talking to himself, "By the way, we have already broken up, we...it's over...how could we... ...so? We...why..."

Zheng Hao watched Wu Kuo retreat step by step. Before Wu Kuo could go far, he stood up and opened the door to enter the house. Wu Kuo, who was outside, did not leave, but Wu Kuo's voice could still be heard in his ears, and he kept talking about why they broke up.

After a long time, Zheng Hao turned around slowly and opened the door mirror. Through the door mirror, Zheng Hao saw that there was no one in the empty corridor, and the sensor lights by the wall were flickering, giving people a gloomy and deserted feeling.

After Zheng Hao made sure that there was no one outside, he finally relaxed, and the pain on his forehead also hit him. Zheng Hao slowly sat on the ground, covered his mouth and let himself cry.

"Well……"